【Goodbye to Social Media】A modern girl leaving Instagram

On the cusp of 18 and 19,I quitted Instagram for good sake. It was an epic step. I mean all of my friends use Instagram.They thought I actually disappeared but here am I. You may wonder 'ah that's simple stuff' but nope. We are teens and we need to get the recognition of the peers. Quitting Instagram is like social suicide. And I chose it.I'm still here so I guess it's not quite a big deal?

Instagram = Drug

I found my life ten times miserable when I was using Instagram. I used to be super addictive to Instagram.It probably used up 2/3 of my time per day. I was like typical teens,scrolling Instagram once I woke up. Stalking strangers,looking up the pics of public figures,imagining one day I'll be like that.....I got 6 accounts. Public,private,super private,journals,primary schools......I guess I probably followed thousands of celebrities. The cast of almost every series I watched,movie stars,directors......All of my friends know that I love posting on Instagram-posting a lot of stories about artists,movies,songs. So you may ask then why I quit if I enjoy sharing stuffs? SIMPLE,I'm so sick and tired of all those drama going on. And the people. And I don't want my life to be sad only because no one sees my stories or posts. Let's be honest.

Instagram = The start of misery

Those who uses Instagram(prob everyone here)......don't even tell me that you haven't been through a single bad feeling when you're using Instagram.Maybe you get sad or disappointed because only a few people view your stories. Maybe you get a bit mad or confused because your crush or your dear friends don't like your posts but then you have spent hours to think of a caption. Maybe you wonder why there're loads of followers of your friends while you are just having two hundreds. It is barely impossible to say you haven't thought of them for a single moment because I'm an example proving you that Instagram can make your life a living hell.

Instagram = Mental war

There's no way you don't make any comparisons between you and your friend.And this type of thought just got stronger and stronger day by day.I was not a confident person,not at all. And this whole Instagram thing just made me feel worse.Some people use Instagram to polish their image in order to enhance their self-esteem or confidence but nahnah,not for me. It's not depressed but I would say feeling not comfortable.

It's like you just won't get any attention of your friends and anyone,feeling so unimportant. One simple example that I believe most of us been through this. When you get sick and alone at home,it's absolutely normal to want to gain some greetings and care from your friends. Even one single text of "take care" will mean a lot at that moment. Yet,when no one actually shows anything,you feel disappointed. It hurts a lot,I swear. It's like you're already physically ill and your heart just gets stabbed one more time. This is the thought you can't stop thinking about. Let's be honest,we all are attention seekers,that's why we use social media,it's just the differentials in levels. Most of us are just hiding the insecurity of being forgotten so we post things frequently so as to remind people "hi,I'm still here".

True Friends detector

Not mentioning self-confidence,you can also know who are actually your true 'friends' by getting rid of Instagram. We all must have tons of followers that actually not our friends ,simply met before or schoolmates. Some you regard as your friends but once you ditch Instagram,everything just becomes so clear.Basically rule number one,true friends never ever will forget your birthday.

Take a good look of my birthday last year and this year. Last year,I was still using it and some I regard as friends sent blessings through Instagram. This year,I quit and most of my followers have known about it through my friend.You can tell that the blessings decrease a lot because people are just randomly saying due to the fact you are on Instagram. But I realized a surprising fact was that if that person was your true friend,he or she would have found ways just to say Happy Birthday to you,no matter how hard that is. I am actually kinda touched this year because of some of them actually called me directly or simply whatsapping me was good.And it just feels so good to find out who your true friends are by using this method.

Quitting Drug

I thought it was going to be so tough but it's not. I get used to not having Instagram.Now,I won't bother the likes or views.I don't need to waste time on something that doesn't actually mean anything to me. Why not put more of your time on your family and true friends? I learn to be relieved and calm.Maybe you should start now too like me. Why not quitting something that makes you sad? Cuz I'm telling you I'm living my best life without it.